Three Years
Loss never gets easier, it only becomes “different.”
Loss never gets easier, it only becomes “different.”
Walter is his neighbor; he lives a few doors down. There are two others in between them and even more in the general vicinity, but Walter has always been my favorite because they share the same birthday. It certainly isn’t because they knew each other (they didn’t), nor because they passed away on the same […]
“Just keep at it,” I heard him say. He’ll say things to me from time to time. Some are complete thoughts, other times they’re words that seem random but aren’t; they’re relevant to a situation or a problem, and they’re a beacon for my foggy brain. I am my father’s daughter. Stoic and reserved, I […]
You know those times in life when you’re simply at a loss for words, next steps — for thoughts of pretty much anything? I’m at a loss right now. It’d be one thing if I was able to articulate what’s up — because with articulation comes some sort of inherent understanding of possible solutions. When you […]
I arrived home from Christmas day festivities at 11:11pm, and it was 70 degrees outside. A warm wind had been blowing for almost 24 hours, and it felt like it should be any season other than winter. Back in the ’90s, I remember appreciating warm Christmases when I’d come home from college in Michigan; something […]
My annual rut has arrived. I usually stumble into one at some point during the year, but “stumbling” seems to imply that there’s a sort of uneven ground that your feet happen upon, followed by some more shuffling as the soil gives way to rockiness, which gives way to a gully. This year’s rut feels like I […]
I’m here. Sometimes it feels otherwise, like those nights when I’m too tired to think, to write, to move. But at this moment — listening to my laundry tumble about in the dryer, picking out the faint clackety-clack of a train’s song being carried through the night air and trying to ignore my hunger pangs […]
The San Gabriel Mountains as well as others here in SoCal have been dusted with their first snow of the season, and our skies have been delightfully gray the past few days. Yesterday one section of the range was in the setting sun’s vibrant amber spotlight; the air was so clear and crisp that you’d […]
One of the things I love most about lessons is that they can be found anywhere. The pipe fixture that the garden hose connects to in the front of the house has a leak, and since it was hidden behind a few rose bushes and other shrubbery, the leak was essentially invisible. At first, the […]
As humans, we make lists. A lot of them. We need to get married x-number of years after college or once we’ve been promoted to a certain level, be pregnant by this age, have our first child by that age, buy a house in this decade, retire within that decade. We make lists that outline the places […]